My name is Payson and I just want to share my thoughts and experiences with those who want to read.

My Latest Posts

• Poems and stuffFebruary 21, 2022
  Sorry for blowing up the page, I found a bunch of poems I wrote when I was younger and wanted to share them. I know that no one will see them but I really felt that sharing them would help me and others
• My darkest hourFebruary 21, 2022
  There is a place i go,One so dark and gloom,It’s full of tears,It’s full of doom,On the outside i smile,While on the inside i die,Talking to you,I will not lie,You are my death,Or my life,You are the sunshine,Or the knife,Whichever you choose to use your power,In this which is my darkest hour.
• Lost and Never FoundFebruary 21, 2022
  There in the dark she waits for her but she nevecomes,She waits to comfort her but she is never thereto comfort,She is never there at all,You can look at her pictures but never her,You can hug her cloths and stuffed animals butnever her,You can be lonely but never with her,NO,You can never do anythig with… Read more: Lost and Never Found
• HappyFebruary 21, 2022
  Happy, is a funny word, it’sthrown around, miusedBut when you truely look at it, it’srarely correctly used.Happy to most means smile andwave, to make the crowd go wild,While happy to some others meansto kinda halfway smile.Happy is a crazy word that makessome people break,For society expects for all to feel itall the same.Happy is a… Read more: Happy
• Letting it outFebruary 5, 2022
  **TRIGGER WARNING**- talks of suicide, self harm thoughts, mental health, and other sensitive topics Just because no one really reads this, considering I have no followers lol, I figured what the hell. I am going to post my notes from my journal from after I got out of the hospital. In 2020 I attempted to… Read more: Letting it out
• Why the heck…February 5, 2022
  What am I supposed to do when I feel my emotions as strongly as I do? I hate you but I love you. Its a constant battle within myself, a continuous clashing of both sides of my heart and my head. My brain is telling me my emotions are over exaggerated but my heart is… Read more: Why the heck…
• Mental health sure is a bitchJanuary 27, 2022
  I find it funny how so many people can struggle with mental health, awareness can be raised, and resources are created but no one wants to talk about it out in the open. Everyone struggles with some sort of mental health disorder, and yet not a soul wants to talk about it. Mental health is… Read more: Mental health sure is a bitch